Just being me.

Its raining cats and dogs now. There hasn't been such a heavy downpour in such a long time already.

posted by ah choy @ 12:39 PM 0 comments

A pang of guilt

As I sit in my room with the windows open, a burst of cool air suddenly rushes in, and I caught a whiff of chinese sausages, fishballs and the likes from the pasar-malam at the void deck.(Emma,my pasar-malam partner!!where are you?) Ahh...I'm feeling hungry already....

Anyway, did some retail therapy just now. Had to vent off some of my anger. Yes, I'm an angry person. :P But am feeling so guilty now. Sigh, this month has been merciless on my pocket. The travelling expenses, the textbooks, the food, stationery and shopping.(in descending order) I do not even want to look at my bank account. Think I will be shocked speechless. I'd rather not see it.

posted by ah choy @ 5:25 PM 0 comments

'Been there, done that'

Its nearing the end of the week, and I must say it has been an interesting and exciting week. The feeling of going back to school to study is...very nice. :) Its even more heartening to know that this time, I'm studying things which can be applied in years to come when I go out to teach.

So, this week was more of a "feel around" week, meet and make new friends, get accustomed to the way of life(which includes the travellling..), and to bond together as a team. The latter point was because we were required to embark on a project to instil some sense of community involvement in teachers so that we can apply these skills in future. So, there was a team bonding activity today to help us get started. Had a debriefing session, made me reflect and think back on the points made by the trainer. Things like "celebrate each small success that we make" are so vital in working together as a group 'cos humans rely on motivation to get going. Also, many people fail to see the importance of communication, which is very essential if you want your group to succeed working together. Most importantly, we must ditch the "been there,done that" mentality when we participate in team-bonding activities 'cos it defeats the purpose, and each activity we participate in, we can take away different learning points from it. I mean, isn't it so true that we all come from different backgrounds and sometimes, we have to take that into account when conversing or exchanging ideas with that person to understand why he has that ceratin perspective on things. So yeah...very meaningful I must say.

I'm getting into the routine of daily school life, of which travelling plays an important part. However, I do not think I will ever get used to travelling 2 hours to and fro for two years. I have a feeling these two years are just gonna fly by just like that. This routine also includes a big element, that is SLEEP! :) Hehe...yeah I'm sleeping all I can now to prepare for the battles ahead...and looking at my tentative timetable, monday is absolutley crazy. It being the first day of the week, has to start at 8.30am and ends at 4.30 pm!! Grr...they did not coin the phrase "monday blues" for nothing. For the rest of the week its quite alright, end at 3.30pm on 2 days, 1,30pm on thurs, and 10.30am on fridays. How exciting right?

Hokay, will stop here. Too much info divulged already...:P Have a great weekend ahead folks!

posted by ah choy @ 7:54 PM 0 comments

First day at school!

Well, I know when I am stressed. Its when I start having the bloated feeling and stomach pains. And this usually occurs before the start of a new school term or an important examination. In this case, its the former. Thankfully, its not as serious as what some of my friends are going through, fever and cough and runny nose all rolled into one. The feeling puts you off big time. But nevertheless, I did not feel my best today, just general discomfort all day. It does not help that it is that time of the month, so I'm having a breakout as well. Sigh.

So my cry for help goes like this, since I'm so stubborn. :"Mum, do we still have gascoal(something to get rid of gas)?" She gets the idea immediately and starts rummaging through the medicine box. However, she cannot find it, and hence proceed to offer me a slew of solutions to combat the pain. Finally settled with the "drink chinese tea" solution. And much to my surprise, I felt better almost immediately! Woohoo! Love my parents to bits....they were so concerned with today being the first day at school and all. Nothing can replace that feeling in all the world?

Seems like people around me are having relationship problems. Sigh, can't think of anything to ease the tension so I'm just hoping for the best. :) Alright, will try and post tomorrow.

posted by ah choy @ 7:49 PM 0 comments

A first

Friday night was..... quite an experience I must say. Yeah, it was my first clubbing experience... thanks to Emma and friends.:) Music at Cocco Latte was good.. had a couple of drinks, helped Peina a little, then danced for a bit. Saw a couple of celebrities there, then saw one of the guys from JC..who was there with his group of friends. Well, would I go clubbing again? I won't make it a lifestyle....but yes, if the occasion calls for it. But, I hate the aftermath of it...the smell of smoke in your hair and all....urgh.

School is starting in about 20 hrs' time. Quite looking forward to it...although its gonna be a day just filled with listening to lectures in the LT. I'm already missing my kiddos!

Alright, back to Harry Potter...am three quarters through the book! Yippee!

posted by ah choy @ 10:33 AM 0 comments

imperfection

Yeah...nothing's ever perfect in this world. Imperfection exists everywhere, its just a matter of how much.

I must admit there's a number of flaws in my character which translates to a high percentage of imperfection. For example: Procrastination
Over-dependence on others
*gan-cheong* spider mentality....
low tolerance for criticism...and others lah
Don't get me wrong, I don't hate myself, just that it irks me sometimes. And I'm trying really hard to change.... Sigh. I need like a big wake-up call from someone. So anyway, I don't understand why she had to tell her....she could have just kept quiet about it after she told me about the issue. Bah... I always get into this sort of s**t. Darn..

And I detest how humans go through daily lives under false pretences. Gosh, if you could only see the amount of that in a workplace. It will shock you. Anyway, I'm ranting here. I'm just having ones of those really bad days where I feel melancholic, sad, and frustrated. Today's class was horrible. Argh. Shan't elaborate, M was such a pain in the neck today, even Mr C agreed. He even wanted to lay his hands on her.

On another note, I saw the same guy whom I saw yesterday on the bus on the way to work. His behaviour made me curious, cos when I was at the bus stop waiting for the bus, he turned around and stared at me for like 5 seconds. Ok, I must confess, no one has ever stared at me in that way before, so it was an eye-opener lah. So we got on the same bus shortly, and he sat diagonally opposite me. Looked at me again, this time, I peeked at the corner of my eye. Heh. Anyway, he was just my eye-candy lah. What I saw today was a turn-off, he smoked! Urgh.
So yupz.

Today's Tuesday! So...its waffles with ice-cream day!! Whee...it somewhat saved my otherwise dreary day at school. 3 more days..!!! I'm getting there!

posted by ah choy @ 9:46 PM 1 comments

Spontaneity

Yes....spontaneity rules the day! Yeah...today's fun-o-meter scored quite high man...I would rate today a 8.5 or 9 on the fun-o-meter scale...hehe. Let me share with u why.

For starters, I was out of home for a consecutive 12 hours!! Like how long was that man??!!

So anyway, pickleberryfairy took mc today, and there was like a total of 8 to 9 teachers not in school today. The relief was total chaos, no doubt about it. Poor laver-bella was stuck in the GO for like 30 minutes just to sort it out. Not helped by a stressed out and blur OM. Sigh. So anyway, I was asked to relief the best P3 class, and boy, it was a joy to teach them. They just light up my life man...so mature...and they really do know how to operate the technology in the classroom! I did not have to touch anything...my goodness. I was a little thrown off by their high level of maturity and intellectual level! So, teaching them music was really fun! It was nice hearing music which was in harmony and coordinated. Finally had time to sit down to mark some books, but not long after, had to "rush" off to relief a p5 class...another error in staff deployment there. After school, met up with Peina at TM for dinner, then window-shopped a little. Decided to go home....and after I alighted at my busstop, lo and behold, I lifted my head and saw familiar faces and a familiar car!!! Wahaha...it was hilarious. It was my uncle's car, and there were my parents, in the car, waving at me to get in the car. My goodness, it was like I was being kidnapped and whisked off to someplace. Haha....it was all in good fun though. So there I was, on my way back to Tamp central, to Century Square to have some coffee. The timing couldn't have been more perfect as pickle called me, asking me to get something for laver-bella. So off I went, in search of cutesy stuff to make up the 21 items in her prezzie! I managed to find something, just as the shop was closing. Lucky me...heh. So all in all, it was very much an exciting day. Phew.

On a side note, dad got a new phone, who, in turn, persuaded me to upgrade my phone as well. Oh well, no hurry....in no urgent need to change phones. Haha...although it is very tempting! Sigh...have to go to sch early tomorrow, to settle the prezzie and thereafter, a long and kinda unmeaningful meeting. Another long day ahead! Toodles everybody!

posted by ah choy @ 10:28 PM 0 comments